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Spring is here!

Two nights ago my friend Edda and I came together to say good-bye to the winter. We made mulled wine at my place, filled it into a thermos and walked down towards the dark river. It was a cold and rainy night. The river was still partly frozen but with a good few inches of water on top. It was half-winter, half not, just as the weather had been that day: a little snow here, a few rays of sunshine there, and lots of rain later on.

The next morning I cycled to work at 7 a.m. I haven’t had to be up early like that for a few weeks now, and last time I was it was still dark at that time. Yesterday it wasn’t, the sun was out – and the birds were singing! Spring birds were singing! It had also stopped raining and the air was fresh and warm. (By ‘warm’ I mean that night temperatures had been above freezing.) Straight away I had that hopeful feeling again that characterises spring for me: hope first of all for many wonderful hours spent in the outdoors, preferably on a bicycle; hope for a lovely summer, for laughing and eating ice-cream…and for a wonderfully fresh and young spring of course! Which is already on my doorstep!

Winter is over, spring is here!

The joy of water

The old mill across the Ihle in Friedensau

This is going to be corny.

Yesterday, I arrived early at work; my boss and office mate wasn’t in yet, or was still in class, I don’t know. As I hadn’t had time to make myself sandwiches, I set out again straight away to buy myself lunch stuff. I love my new campus, it’s leafy and green and very quiet. Walking along the wee burn on the border of campus brings you close to the fields, and behind the fields is a huge forest that stretches for miles and miles.The shop is in the building that formerly housed the mill, so it’s right by the side of the burn. Even though it was warm just about 9.30 am, it was already warm and humid. The sun was getting ready to scorch us again.

As I approached the mill building I could hear children screaming and laughing. The kindergarten is right next to the shop (not for consumerist reasons I don’t think) and the children were already up and running, literally. I smiled to myself about their exuberance. One wee girl was running and screaming like mad, arms up in the air. She was a bit too old to still be in that phase where toddlers enjoy the sound of their own voice, and that’s probably why the screaming struck me as a bit strange (though I know that children do a lot of things for apparently no reason whatsoever).

Anyway, on my way back from the shop I glanced over to the children again – they were all running around screaming, boys and girls! Arms up high in the air and lots of noise. And then I saw why: the nursery teacher, holding a garden hose, was filling up a big outdoor bathtub for the children and they were, I think, super excited about that. At 9.30 am. It was upon the realisation that the bathtub might have something to do with it that I also detected a pattern in their running and creaming exercise: run/scream towards the tub that is being filled up, stop and have a look, put the little hand in the cold cold water for a sec – and run away screaming excitedly only to return for a do-over presently. They had a ball and it was great fun to see them be so happy!

Us grown-ups should do the very same thing next time we’re about to go swimming in a pool/lake or wherever. That’d be great! For ourselves and those who watch us :) Could also be a bit painful too, depending on the temperature of the water one is dealing with. The last time I screamed in connection with water was when I ran into the cold North Sea in the northeast of Scotland on 1 May; the screaming was a mixture of fun and horror, I must admit, and I don’t think I looked so much different from the little girl that I spotted first who was running around with her arms in the air…

The playful mode

At the end of a long working day, or in the middle during a break, or in your free time at home, what is it that you most long to play? A geeky memory game!!! And here’s a version you can play right now: it’s been created by digital artist Barbara Parkman and is called Flower Match. It’s my sweetener at this stage of my life (which is the PhD finishing stage) and I thought I’d share. Barbara writes all the animations and 3D graphics in her free time and that’s pretty impressive. That there’s a sweet little game with flowers among her products – good for me and you, eh ;) Solitaire gets old – is old! – and Pearl Poppers which I have also tried just so as to take the edge off (let’s assume there’s no alcohol readily available; computer games are the next best thing, right?) but Pearl Poppers stresses me out right now. All that speed and concentration you need for it, can’t be bothered. I wonder how the wee children that it’s been made for handle all the stress…A few sweet flowers are about it right now, so Flower Match it is for me. I’m not very good at it actually; I need about 4:30 mins to find all the matches. Still, it’s fun.

 

 

Time for re-reading books

I am a picky reader. When I’m in the book shop browsing for new books many covers will strike my fancy and many plots, as per description on the back, will too. But they have to be set in the right place for a start; I have never been able to read books set in India for example. Russia, Africa, South America – no problem. So that’s one thing I am careful with, the setting. Then there’s the time; historical novels push it a bit for me most of the time. Self-finding narratives à la Paulo Coelho find limited appeal too. though I have read two of his. You know how it is, every reader has their likes and dislikes, so although there is a wealth of books out there it can sometimes be hard to find the right one.

Now, imagine you’re super-stressed out at work and busy at home in the evening and therefore have hardly any capacity to left to think about relatively (compared with stuff at work) unimportant things like ‘what book will I read now’. You won’t be asking yourself that probably because you won’t even have time to read, or at least you think you don’t have the time. That’s the situation I am in right now. Can’t be bothered relating to a plot, getting to know a protagonist and taking sides in a problem of sorts. And don’t even get me started on reading a price-winning or clever novel, or poetry – good grief! Not the time.

Now is clearly the time for going back to the old books, that’s what needs to be done. It’s re-reading time! I am so occupied mentally with finishing my PhD at the moment that I simply can’t get started on a new book. Bye bye new worlds-in-books, welcome old friends in books I have already read. Comfort, relaxation and pure enjoyment are the words on my mind when I am thinking of these books. You come back to them and you feel comfortable instantly.

That I came back to my old books follows logically from the fact that I love books and that I need to read a bit before going to bed, otherwise my brain won’t change gear. It’ll simply continue to rattle through thesis-related problems. So recently I stood there looking at my books wondering what to do: Couldn’t start a new book but don’t just want to re-read any old old book, as it were.

In come the novels of Jasper Fforde! I have only two of them, one of the Thursday Next series and one in the Nursery Crime series. What makes these novels so special? Well, Jasper Fforde, as I recently learned (here), comes from a family of academics which really shows in his prose and the brilliant creations in his books. The Thursday Next series, for instance, is based on the idea that there is such a thing as literary crimes, ergo there are literary crime detectives, or LiteraTecs, trained in English literature so that they can capture literary criminals. (So studying English Lit is important after all!) I read and recently re-read The Jane Eyre Affair in which the third-most dangerous criminal on the planet abducts Jane from the novel, thereby upsetting the entire course of the narrative. Thursday (Thursday Next is the female protagonist in these books) goes into the narrative to try and rescue the plot.There are a great many literary side-plots and there’s a bit of time travelling too. It’s a pretty colourful book.

The same can be said about The Fourth Bear which I am re-reading now. The twist here is that there exists something called PDRs, or ‘persons of dubious reality’ who started off as characters in fiction but, due to the power of the collective unconscious, have taken material form which is causing all sorts of problems. The red-legged scissor-man, for instance, will appear armed with a gigantic pair of scissors the moment a child puts a thumb in his/her mouth. Then there are the three bears who receive a visit by Goldilocks, a well-known gold-haired reporter who is later found murdered near the bears’ hut. The three bears, it turns out in the course of the investigation, are involved in the kind of mischief bears can be expected to be involved in: they are illegally dealing with honey of which they can legally only carry a small amount  since honey to bears is as cocaine is to humans. (I didn’t know that.) The heroes here are in the Nursery Crime Division which solves crimes related to nursery rhymes and children’s books.

So yeah, re-reading these books works really well! In fact, I am looking forward to going to bed because I know that I will be able to turn a few pages. The plots are lively and they make me smile all the time so that I fall asleep in a chuckling mood. Fforde truly has a great sense of humour and he has created worlds that are fun and easy to be in. That’s what makes his books so beautifully suited to being re-read in times of great stress. I can imagine P.G. Wodehouse’s books or Oscar Wilde’s plays to work similarly well: they are witty, there isn’t much drama – since that’s the last thing you need in times of stress – and they are humorous. Re-reading books with these attributes is always a pleasure and I can highly recommend it.

Sunday night campfire

Blessed be country living, for when you live in the countryside you have to have campfires quite regularly, my friend who lives in a village close by tells me, because you need to get rid of the branches from cutting back shrubs and trees. And there is nothing better than a campfire to warm yourself with, to listen to whilst you’re gazing into the sky, or to get dreamily lost in by watching the flames and sparks dance in the night-sky.

Longing for “rabbit-nibbled, sheep-cropped grass”

 

Vita Sackville-West's gardens at Sissinghurst Castle

Lady Ottoline Morrell's gardens at Garsington Manor

Virginia Woolf and her sister Vanessa Bell, both members of the Bloomsbury Group, lived in this 'small cottage'

Bloomsbury coexisted in Bloosmbury and in simple farmhouses on the Downs, where they had servant problems and problems with plumbing. They loved the earth, but they loved it for something irretrievably lost, as well as for its smells and scents and filth and bounce and clog and crumble. Those great masters of the description of the English earth, Richard Jeffries and later W.H. Hudson, who can describe the whole expanse of the clean air, and the currents in it, and the rabbit-nibbled, sheep-cropped grass on the Downs, the close trees in coppices, the solitary thorns shaped by the wind, the fish fanning against the current, the birds riding the thermal flow, so that we think they are our guide to the unspoiled green and pleasant land – both of these are in fact men of a Silver Age, elegiac. They spend pages listing the species of birds and mammals erased from their land by pheasant-rearing gamekeepers. The goshawk, the pole cat, the pine marten, gone, gone away. Pike decimated. Trees tidied out of their wild shapes and habits. The Golden Age was when no humans interfered with anything.

from A.S. Byatt (2009) The Children’s Book. London: Vintage. p. 392

Sentiments which are not reflected in their gardens. (More on the Bloomsbury Group here.) How does one reflect such sentiments in gardens? Isn’t the idea of a garden itself destructive of the Golden Age already? A Silver Age phenomenon?

 

The Children’s Book

 

I’m trying to put the PhD worries to the side for the time being and to just get on with my writing without thinking about it too much. So I started reading a new book because that always helps a little. I settled on Antonia Byatt’s The Children’s Book (2009) which was shortlisted for the Man Booker Prize last year. My choice is a bit of an escapist one, to be honest, as

As found on www.randomhouse.com.au

her books are always set in the 19th century. Byatt has a wonderfully sumptuous style; her stories contain fleshed-out problematic characters and beautiful worlds. Reading this book is an escape but it also genuinely adds something to my lifeworld right here and now.

All of them, from Florian [the youngest of five children] to Olive herself [the authoress-mother], walked about the house and garden, the shrubbery and the orchard, the stables and the wood, with an awareness that things had invisible as well as visible forms, including the solid kitchen and nursery walls, the concealed stone towers and silken bowers. They knew that rabbit warrens opened into underground lanes to the land of the dead, and that spider webs could become fetters as strong as steel, and that myriads of transparent creatures danced at the edge of the meadows, and hung and chattered like bats in the branches, only just invisible, only just inaudible. Any juice or any fruit or flower might be the lotion that, squeezed on the eyelids, touched to tongue or ears, would give the watcher or listener a way in, a power of inhuman sensing. Any bent twig might be a message or a sign. The seen and the unseen world were interlocked and superimposed. You could trip out of one and into the other in any moment.

Kindness

The theme of the week for me has been hypocrisy. I’ve tried to lay out some of the thoughts I have on the topic first and then started wondering how far it usually spreads. Is it really rampant in institutional settings and not so much elsewhere? Still not sure. What I am sure about is that it is much easier to observe instances of hypocritical behaviour than it is to observe instances of kindness, and that’s what at the end of the day is really bugging me.

I few days ago, as I was walking to uni, I witnessed a small act of kindness in the midst of the rush-hour. A bus had pulled into a bus-stop and was now waiting to get going again; none of the cars would stop to let it out of the little bus pocket. Then a lorry approached the scene. It started slowing down 50 m before getting to the bus stop and signalled the bus driver to set in motion from afar. The lorry eventually had to come to a full stop because the bus was slow to move. Both their engines groaned and moaned as they rolled slowly past me.

This was a random act of kindness!! Completely unnecessary! The lorry driver didn’t gain anything in this! I thought on the spot that these kinds of actions are quite rare.

Actually, come to think of it, I remember an extraordinary act of kindness committed by the least likely person. I was buying soggy American cookies and a coffee at a small stall in the shopping centre. I was very excited about that for some reason and chatted a bit with the shop assistant. When it came to paying, I suddenly realised that I was 2 ₤ short. I was about to give back the cookies or the coffee, I can’t remember which (probably not the cookies then) when the shop assistant said ‘You know what, how about you give me the money next time.’ And I did give her the money next time.

Copyright Sam Pullara.

My sweetheart always teases me saying that I want to live in a world full of butterflies and flowers and sunshine. That’s a bit of an exaggeration; just a tad more kindness to go around would already do! But there really must not be enough of this rare good, or else there wouldn’t be such a thing as the Random Acts of Kindness Foundation. This organisation “inspires people to practice kindness and to “pass it on” to others”. They provide free educational and community ideas, guidance, and other resources to kindness participants through their website. All you have to do is sign up. Intriguing eh. It’s an American non-profit organisation and it’s got that brilliant ‘we can make it happen’ optimistic attitude:

How about setting up a lemonade stand and donating the profits to a local food share? Or making crafts with seniors at the local retirement center? Making a new friend and sharing a special snack is always a fun summer experience when you travel. Middle schoolers can pack up books that may be too young for them now and deliver them to a family resource center, or read them to younger neighborhood children. How about teaching a younger child to play baseball or fly a kite, too? Many High School students want to change the world so why not direct that energy into a kindness brigade that fixes broken bikes, mows lawns or adopts school yards to clean?

We’ve got one such ‘kindness brigade’ here and they do actually fix bikes for free, I just never realised until now that this kind of thing is called ‘kindness brigade’.It’s a bunch of undergraduate students who run it, I think, so the assumption (which I formed based on the passage above) that acts of kindness are committed by comfortably-situated middle-class people doesn’t seem to apply.

This could get unbelievably trite right now. I better stop before I do start talking about butterflies. Happy Sunday!

Hans Vandekerckhove

I made a wee trip into the Belgian art world this morning and unearthed this artist here, Hans Vandekerckhove. I like the way he talks about his career as a painter, about the colours he likes etc. The paintings themselves are intriguing and wonderful, though I must admit  I never quite get it when oils are used so as to look like watercolours. I guess I’m a bit old-fashioned and amateurish like that.

Below is the transcript of an interview Vandekerckhove gave in 2007; it’s really interesting. Judging from his most recent paintings, he has found his mountain greenhouse by now.

Copyright Hans Vandekerckhove

The Discovery of the Horizon

The greenhouse was my first studio. That warmth, that snug security. My family worked in horticulture and floriculture. It was in those greenhouses that I spent my youth. Ingelmunster, in southern West Flanders, where I was born and bred, was my home for eighteen years. I lived there with my parents, three brothers and one sister.

My first drawings date from when I was three. Many of them have been kept by my parents. In them you see the skiers in Garmisch-Partenkirchen I saw on television on New Year’s day. A little later, when I could read, I translated The Lion of Flanders, Hendrik Conscience’s historical novel about the Battle of the Golden Spurs, into a cartoon. I also loved the medieval chanson de geste of Karel ende Elegast (Charles and Elegast, about Charlemagne). Chivalric life appealed to me. Later my interest expanded to include Greek, Roman and Norse mythologies. Myths are the stories of the origin, when people and animals were one; this has always intrigued me. I remember that we bought The Odyssey and The Iliad, in nineteenth-century spelling, from an antiquarian in Antwerp. I wrote a summary of some fifty pages and drew historical tableaux full of armoured heroes with plumed helmets.

My interest in literature I inherited from my father – a well-read man, portrait painter and bee-keeper. He combined nature and culture with a profound philosophical interest in life. He was a real DIY man, member of the local artists’ circle and a subscriber to the Flemish national heritage journal Openbaar Kunstbezit Vlaanderen. He had made his own easel. At some point in the 1950s he managed to get hold of enormous pots of pigment, which he used them to make huge tubes of paint. He still uses them today. He taught me the alchemy of the painter’s studio.

As a student in Ghent I began a second life. Although I would dearly have loved to go to art school, my parents wanted me to read art history at university. I learned life drawing at evening classes, but that was of scant comfort. My graduation thesis was on David Hockney. As part of my research I spent a month in London where I learned about the vicissitudes of the gallery world. I never met Hockney himself, but we did correspond. Some people find his work too easy, but I still get a kick from it. Difficult or easy are not terms that apply to art. Art is like love. It’s not about knowledge or reflection, but intuitive understanding. Matisse gives me the same feeling.

I began to paint professionally after I graduated at the beginning of the eighties. I wanted to prove myself, to resist the petit bourgeois reflex that you couldn’t survive as a fulltime artist. It was a really good time for artists. In Germany there was the Neo-Expressionist movement with the Neue Wilde. We didn’t allow ourselves to be led by critics or curators. We made uninhibited, new art. The bigger the better. We were soon invited for exhibitions in New York and Washington. It was the yuppie era. The atmosphere was extraordinary, the friendships affectionate. Even if everyone had different styles and temperaments, we exhibited together and that generated a massive impetus.

Through the Neue Wilde, a couple of art prizes and an exhibition in the Ghent Museum of Contemporary Art I came into contact with Mark Deweer, who became my dealer and introduced me to the art circuit. I was lucky. A dream path like that is not granted to everyone.

At the end of the eighties I wanted to go back to basics. At that time I read Thomas Mann’s Doctor Faustus, a wonderful book that influenced me greatly, but unfortunately in a negative way. What struck me most was the theory of the breakthrough: the more mathematically you give shape to something, the stronger the flames of emotion kindled in the creation. The theory related to music in the first place. I am not a great expert on music, but Mann had me in his spell and I tried to represent this theory in my work. Through that book I began to work more abstractly in ensembles, triptychs and on a monumental scale. I used different materials, began to work in a more alchemical, constructivist and mathematical way. What vanished, however, was my emotional involvement: I had stopped loving my own work. As a consequence I had to accept the fact that I am unable to paint from theory. Or, as Goethe put it, ‘Observation is far more intense that reflection.’

In 1997, my uncle, the gardener I spent my childhood with, died. It was to become a crucial year for me. His death and the emotions that came with it had a Proustian effect on me. Through this experience I returned to figuration and began to paint the first gardens from memory.

1997 was also the year in which I happened to end up in Dungeness on the south coast of England. The filmmaker Derek Jarman, one of the most famous victims of aids in England, built a garden there where he spent the last few years of his life. This surreal location is comparable in atmosphere to Doel near Antwerp: twentieth-century industrialization on a salty plane scattered with indestructible poppies. Jarman had bought a fisherman’s hut on the Kent coast and built a garden around it, set among innumerable, colourful fishing boats and two lighthouses, the old and the new one. The symbolism of a dying man living in a joyful garden on a piece of infertile silt ground moved me deeply. This is where I discovered the horizon. It seems banal, but for the artist in me, the horizon line was an important revelation. Going towards the horizon became for me the symbol of Romanticism in nature and of Realism in painting. This was the beginning of the third period in my work.

I work like a racing cyclist. Some periods in the year I am in top form, at other times I have to battle with deep slumps, but the cogs keep on turning. Once I’m working I am highly disciplined. I work all day long on four or five canvases at a time.

I usually begin in my old, accustomed way with rough brushes and numerous layers until a colour plane emerges. I then add clearly defined lines, usually with white paint, to the coloured ground. I have two chairs from which to view my work. One close by, the other at a distance. I never used to sit on the furthest, but I do so increasingly often these days. Sometimes I sit there just for a moment, sometimes for an hour or two, looking at the work and completing it with my eyes.

I use all colours but I have particular preferences within each hue: among the greens I love moss green and sap green most, tints that are close to nature. Among the yellows I love lemon and orange is one of my favourite colours of all. Orange is abstract and has a mystical aura. The orange, for instance, is the symbol of paradise in Matisses’s work.

Painting is a solitary activity. Moreover, my studio is completely shut off from the world. I have my mechanisms to get going: music and books. I listen to Bach and Mozart to relax after I’ve finished, but during the act of painting I prefer to put on pop music for its rousing rhythms. Everything I like to listen to is here. Sometimes I feel like listening to the complete recordings of Van Morrison, Bob Dylan or David Sylvian. That can take two or three days.

Before I begin to paint I usually read for an hour or so. Call it my journey in the traffic jam on my way to work. I need literature to concentrate, to feel harmony. Sometimes it influences my work too. My taste is extremely eclectic. I don’t just read great works by Kafka or Céline, but also thrillers and contemporary literature like Donna Tartt or the encyclopaedic novels of Thomas Pynchon. I have also been a fervent fan of Tolkien since my youth.

I read and reread. I have read everything by Samuel Beckett. The theme of the walker and the evocation of nature in his work has influenced me greatly. Even though he has the reputation of being a pessimistic Existentialist, for me he is primarily a sensuous writer who allows the atmosphere of the Irish landscape to seep through his books. His absurdist play Waiting for Godot was inspired by a painting by Caspar David Friedrich, who has been my favourite painter for several years. Beckett must have seen his work in around 1930 in Hamburg. A strange coincidence that such an Existentialist as Beckett should be inspired by a Romantic like Friedrich. Friedrich’s two figures beside a tree contemplating the moon has become the epitome of Godot and twentieth-century humankind. A couple of years ago a friend told me that the atmosphere in my work reminded him of the films of Andrei Tarkovsky. That fascinated me, so I went in search of work by this Russian filmmaker. He is famous for making films that are hard to penetrate and in which the characters go in search of the meaning of their lives or spiritual understanding. His work is marked by highly poetic artistic direction, full of symbolism and metaphor, and a singular style of filming and editing. His most famous film is Andrei Rublev, a three-hour epic based on the life of a Russian icon painter entirely consisting of tableaux. I remember the first time I saw it during the film afternoons at school. I was fourteen and didn’t get any of it. Now, so many years later, it is one of my favourite films. The dream scene in Stalker, another Tarkovsky film, has made a deep impression on me. It features a mythological-type figure who guides two people through a deserted area, the ‘Zone’. At a certain point the figure lies down in the water and is approached, in slow motion, by a black dog. This riveting image merged in my mind with my earliest childhood memory of the painting St Jerome in the Desert in the Ghent Museum of Fine Arts. In that picture St Jerome is lying in prayer• while a vision is revealed to him. The painter’s attribute, the lion, has turned out rather small, which is hardly surprising for it is unlikely that Bosch had ever seen one. I turned the animal into a dog. The merging of the film scene with the painting led to my exhibition ‘Stalking Hieronymus’.

I use anything that interests me, consciously or unconsciously. You build up your personality through the things that grip you. Van Gogh had to travel to Provence to see the things he wanted to paint. Now Provence comes to us in films, books, documentaries or the Internet. Apart from these sources I also take digital photos which I rework on the computer – great fun – and sometimes use for my paintings.

I often go away to walk. Nomadic travelling is a release from the sedentary life of the studio. Walking is personal expansion in the direction of the horizon. You discover the world between you and it. In my studio I try to internalize the world. Compare it with a Viewmaster. You shut yourself off from the outside world in order to look inside, but at the same time you look into the distance. Walking is like that too. Walking is movement, being at one with yourself and the outside world. Wales, Scotland, Cornwall, Ireland – these are all wonderful landscapes to walk in. I love the British expression ‘the re-enchantment of the world.’ This is what I experience when I’m out walking.

I am lucky, I don’t have to walk alone. My wife is my companion, my conversation partner and my primary critic. I trust her judgement. She follows my work from its inception to its completion. We have an intense working relationship. She also takes care of the business side of my life and that brings me peace. I have colleagues whose creativity suffers because they ignore the business side of things, or don’t take care of them properly. I don’t want to go through that. Let me just go on working the way I am.

Our two children have now left home and I can once again do what I like. I dream of painting mountains. That’s something I have never done. So now we are going to explore mountains. For two years I’ve been looking for a mountain greenhouse, but I haven’t found one yet. It keeps me busy. Searching, giving the sensuous shape in my studio. My paintings determine where I travel to or whom I want to see. I find it much more interesting to paint my own daughter than to want to say something about women in general. I’ve learned that particular lesson. The reflexive approach goes by the board. Some curators and critics in today’s art world think the reflexive approach is very important, I don’t at all. You reach the core of being better through selfless – disinterested – observation than reflection. In that sense I feel much better now, happier.

I turn fifty this year, but my drive is greater than ever. Thomas Mann wrote every day, but complained that he had no life. Many artists I know can see themselves in this. The advantage I have is that I use my life in my work. I live to work and that makes me feel good.

Friedl’ Lesage

January 2007

Reflections on the Cairngorms

I crossed the Cairngorms yesterday, from South to North. Even though these are sort of my ‘home mountains’, this was the first time I have ever been in the Cairngorms, and to walk right through the heart of them to the other side was very special. It took nine hours at a steady but leisurely pace, with frequent stops for checking the map and the compass (for this was part of my mountain navigation training). The route that me and my friend had selected went over Ben Macdui which is the second-highest peak in Britain. There were a few showers in between but that was ok.

The Cairngorms are interesting mountains; the only word I can think of to describe them is ‘FAT’. Yes, they are fat mountains, from the top anyway. This is because the tops are mostly weathered and form huge, rounded plateaus that look a bit like the backs of gigantic fat creatures too lazy to move much. It’s easy to get lost on these plateaus, especially when visibility is poor, and to wander off over a cliff, which is why we did the navigation exercise there: If you can navigate in the Cairngorms where there are fewer landmarks to go by, you can pretty much navigate anywhere.

Fat, lazy, quiet, big mountains they are with impressive gorges cutting right through them. As my friend said, these mountains powerfully exude the fact that they have been here for ages and that they will be here for ages once we are gone. I don’t know, I think that’s strangely comforting; it’s good to know that what is good will endure.

Perhaps it is a bit odd that the mountains should be loaded with so much meaning. But for me and my friend who is also in academia being out there in the hills was very meaningful. It puts things in perspective, it helps you see that all the trouble at work, all the fighting, strategising, game-playing, face-on/face-off sort of interaction and competing in the name of a career might maybe not be worth it. That life can be much simpler and much more enjoyable. That it’s possible to be happy with very few things, or that it’s worth fighting for what one knows to be right.

Granted, I brought all these thoughts and intentions to the Cairngorms, they didn’t infuse me with them. But being so small amidst these fat, lazy hills has a humbling effect. It really does make you wonder why we always take ourselves so seriously in the name of something, and why that often means that we’re not kind to each other.

Strange (and sentimental) though it might seem, there was more of a human touch in these wonderful, quiet mountains than amongst so many people that I see every day.

I am sure that my pictures can’t capture any of this and my words probably don’t make much sense either. So I say: Go out there and see for yourself. (Take waterproofs with you, and perhaps you should have one person in the party who knows how to move in the mountains.)